My last difficult goodbye was on May 18th, 2020, when my mom died suddenly. I literally felt a hole in my heart when I saw my mom’s eyes roll back as her body gave way on the hospital bed. I shook her so she could wake up, I called out to her and stared at her in disbelief. I could not believe that I had lost my mom, bestfriend, companion, motivator and my everything. I got a tattoo in memory of her and had “my hardest goodbye” written. I can never forget that traumatizing ordeal. Memories of her death still haunt me. Life can never be the same…